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ढेर सारे खुशियाँ सब के लियें - happiness from the old year and Happy New Year !!!

कल इस साल का आखरी दिन है. पिछली बातें यादें बन जायेंगे और नईं बातें नए उमीदों पे टिक जायेंगे.पुरानी खुशियाँ रेत की तरह समेटी जायेंगे और नयी साल की शुरुवात रेसोलुतिओंस से भर दीए जायेंगे. ऐसे मैं मेरा दिल तो कुछ और ही कहता है. नाही कोई वादा और नाही कोई सिखवा ,इस्सी के साथ नए साल की स्वागत करती हूँ और कुछ दिनों के लिए दोस्तों से अलविदा लेती हूँ. पता नहीं नयी साल कहाँ बितायुंगी मगर जहाँ कहीं भी रहूंगी आप सबके लिए सुभ कामनाएं जरूर मांगूंगी . All The Very Best To All :) सोचो के झीलों का शहर हो, लेहेरों पे अपना एक घर हो. हम जो देखे सपने प्यारे, सच हो सारे ...बस और क्या :) enjoy life - make this your slogan for the birth and make your dreams unlimited. Some will definitely come true. This year I got so many strange mails where people were appreciating my profile and blog. But the best piece I have ever received says - "....U r like...like ....that first flake of snow in winter....soft..smooth... innocent and utterly romantic or if i may term it as Bliss....u r that note which every poe...

wish list :)

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I Wish To Have This On 01.01.10

MM

MM, that's what I am describing myself now a days. Hey ! don't giggle over your thoughts. I don't mean Millimeter, I mean I am becoming Movie Maniac - MM :) I have been watching few classics these days but the best piece I have seen is 3 idiots. Hats off to the entire crew of 3 idiots for giving us such a deadly movie to refresh ourselves before entering another year of resolutions, commitments and what not.If U have'nt watched it yet... Boss, make it a must watch as early u can.

Sleepless !!!

I never thought there can be a movie which can make me read a book and watch another movie in a sequence. I just watched Sleepless in Seattle. A very good movie. A movie which is forcing me to read The Fountain Head again and raises a feel to watch Casablanca again. In the very first scene ,i was reminded of Casablanca,where,all the guy had was just his memories and here all they have is just a sign. In this movie, you will find what true love is and for those who have'nt fallen in love, it will make you fall in love and for those who have'nt got their love, I bet you will be remotivated or you will rethink of what you did'nt struggle for. It shows how compatible a girl turned to be a wife can be with her husband there by showing how expressive a husband can be. But, yes there is always someone to be honored or praised in making such lives or dreams come true. And in this movie, the little boy plays the Magic. I rate this movie in a line with all my favourites, PS:I love yo...

A day not to be mentioned

I dont know what went wrong... but i messed up my whole day .. :) with a regular process of my treatment , I went to the doctor and was all set for it. But instead of a heating current of 5-9 range I opted for a 10-15 range. I wonder why i wanted to take the pain of that much heat when I knew my body restricts me to 8. Well , I still dont know why i took it. but the after effect was good... I got a special massage at the spa from the Doc. But the worse was she had to rub my foot, to get those burns out, so that I can go for the treatment tomorrow. It was terrible. Well, I am glad i could take that pain. I dont think that was enough for the day...i had to walk down with that painful foot and middle of the way..while setting the stroller for my son, i hit my thumb and now i am with ice pack on it.. Seriously a bad day... Anyways ! day has ended.. hope things go good later on . But ,strange enough, All through this , I was just reminded of Domnique . God Bless Amen .

LA - destination always accepted

If there is a place on earth which I would love to spend days next to my home its Los Angeles ... I dont know how I got a soft corner for the place, but I am always delighted to live there. May be the people I have been with, the friends I made there, the shops, the malls, my 1st house in USA ,#135 , in short I love anything and everything in LA. My most memorable place ,where I viewed world in a different angle. I could built my very first social stand there. Even this time when I was in LA, I really had a super blasting week. Thanx to Milli ma'am n Bilas Sir for their splendid food .. I swear it was a treat..every dish we had was worth praising. My visit to Tally Ho was another best part.. cuz thats the place where I lived and had enourmous memories. The moment I step into Tally Ho,or to say the moment our car drove thru' Hawthrone, I got a feel as if I am going to my Maika ! . I am glad I could make a visit to my old place and visit all friends over there in such a short spa...

oo la la ....

With a passion for dance, I have never put a stop to it. Whether its me on stage or me on the front seat one among the audience, I have always had a soft corner for Dance. So how could I ever miss this grand function at the Newpark Mall. I was one in the huge crowd viewing and tapping to the teens of California... take a look and be a part of it. Enjoy !!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_QdIP-Ye7Y (for a shorter time) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3f-EH2g9n8&feature=channel (for the whole dance) oops sorry u need to copy n paste the link in youtube :(

A real lucky day or just a feel ?

My day began with nothing special..it was as usual a hectic beginning. But all of a sudden the world around me seemed like changing. I was giggling, smiling, happier that yesterday.. :) On my way to his school, I heard two women conversing that " Purnima "(a full moon night), falling on a Monday and specially Karthik Purnima falling on a Monday is considered as a very auspicious and lucky day. With a blank mind, I rewinded my day and thought what was so lucky today. May be my morning was really special or my evening is going to be special as I will be getting my new pair of glasses. Anyways ! I am going with what I heard and signing off for the day . Hope every one had a special smile on their face today. God Bless !!!

this is what life really is...

From the moment of bliss through the steps of life , I acted upon so many activities, interacted with so many people, passed through various thought processes but at certain level these attributes changed .But at the back of my mind I hardly ever forgot anything or anyone. Gone are those days when I was giggling with my brothers and sisters over silly matters , sharing food from the same plate, eating, munching, chattering all day long even fighting, quarelling but at the end of the day praying for them. Well these habits have'nt changed but the scenario have changed. We are all grown up and living lives as per the dimensions we have set for ourselves. I came abroad,living my parents, my house, all my fun over there. But made new friends and life changed like a toss of a coin. Few of my unfolded dreams which I had once dreamt of came true. Well my view of USA ,obviously changed because I had a thought that I will find no friend and a beautiful ,cozy house with peace all over. But ,...

A black out @ my place

Can you believe, there was a black out at my place today. For near about five minutes there was a power failure at home, no street signals working . But the best part was.... when I had canceled my driving test today.. Hurray !!! b'cuz I swear I could have never driven on such a rainy street with no signals except relying on self judgement of Stop n Go and that too on the streets of California. Thanx to his black tongue....

Unwind or Wind up !!!

We wind up or unwind our past ,there is always something which never changes in our life. Even if time changes but that person or feeling or thing remains unchanged for us. Something similar is our childhood. We can never forget or change it. But yes,it is always reminded or thought of. Be we with a person talking about our childhood or looking at some videos and getting reminded of the same,we never stop ourselves from sharing it. When my son does something which he feels is an achievement for him, even though it carries no sense but makes it sensible when i realise that it is created by a 4 years old brain. This is exactly the way we had ones felt when we were with that special person when he/she was feeling special of certain things we did. I don't remember if I had taken a close look at a snail but a tiny brain knows that the snail can be brought home, kept in a glass jar with some mud, grass and water. This was his Snail Project... do you remember what you did when you were at...

surprised with the unexpected !!!

http://www.google.com/ I opened my mail box to find this picture, the picture of Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi. I did'nt know whether I was really surprised or happy. Well I was both. In a country like USA, I really feel honoured to see our Father of The Nation's birthday update in a page like Google. My special thanx to google. When every citizen and specially the era of this generation logs to ther screen,they will see Bapu's pic and will definitely seacrh who Mr Gandhi is. And this is how they will know, how important, how preciuos he is for India. Proud to be an Indian.

Oh dear ! what can the matter be ?

Ever since I got inclined towards You, I had an unusual feeling. Whenever I was happy, I thought it is because you are always with me and even when I was sad, I knew you are there to correct it for me. At times of fault, I was not scared because I knew You are the Almighty for me, so you will always rectify it. With passing time this became a habit. Even today, when things don't go as per my wish or vice-a-versa ,I leave everything to you, think about you and bow down before the situation so that things go well. Believe me or not, but may be because of the various sinuous in life ,I never felt of leaving you to go ahead of me or stay behind. I am teaching the same to my son, that He is always in your heart. If you listen carefully, you can liten to his words . Well ,he takes it his way,"Mamma, Ganesha stays in my heart,and he is saying its not eating or sleeping time,it's only play time."....:)Cant stop his flow of thoughts. Can't stop my thoughts either. Many a t...

was it me or some thought ?

A regular 20-25 mints walk from my place to my son's school took me hardly 10 minutes today . And i was smiling all through my way , i dont know why this was happening. Even for a fraction of second i blushed, then forcefully i changed my mind, saying " oh no, this is a road" . Saw a very small puppy,i say it very small becuz it looked jst like a fresh born one and much smaller to the chihuahua,coming pretty close to me and waving his tail and staying close for some time and that made me happy.But truely speaking i was smiling from morning, unnoticed to all, i was in my world but with no such bound feelings to make me happy. I dressed up in my usual way so that nothing goes hyper but i let my hair fall free, did'nt feel like tying them. Looked myself in the mirror, and guess what, I reacted as if i had slimmed down :P . Gosh ! was something getting me nostalgic ? may be but nah ... :) anyways i am happy today and still smiling ... :) God be with me Amen

hard times when celebration is lonely

......with all tring tring of the calls and my echos on the arrival of the baby from the womb, warming the arms of the numb, He is the Yuvraj of the family.Gracius to the Almighty for his destiny. Born on 20th Sept'09, Sunday , he takes the 34th position in the team. Apart from all the happiness and blessings I can bestow on him, it hits really hard when i cant be at home in this special moment. Being away from the family because of certain constraints can give terrible pains which can never be expressed by words but tears do roll down the cheeks. Dont want to curse myself for being where i am today, because its my fate which has brought me here, but still i desperately want to be with everyone there . I miss you all . Lots of love to the proud parents , my bhaiya-bhabi , and their lil 1.

waiting impatiently

With a new member to be added to our family of 33, which includes all baccha parties, moms n grandmoms are busy calculating the best time and the best day for his/her arrival. I am also counted on the list as i ll be holding a special position soon. All betting for a saturday child, like me.. but i am praying for a Sunday child . A Sunday born chlild is a combo pack of all positive attributes. And they say, if its a child born on a Sunday, she/he carries her/his luck everywhere. I am calling up home every now n then and bugging brains of all because i am missing home today. I wont be there standing outside the operation theatre to hold the little one as my number comes from a long queue of family but still i know i ll be the first one she will hold to. Waiting for the pearl........ well , this is what every child carries ..... Monday's child is fair of face, Tuesday's child is full of grace, Wednesday's child is full of woe, Thursday's child has far to go, Friday's ...

this is how things change

with few bad serves and week strikes, del Potro takes the trophy ... and Roger looses his Grand Slam Title. --- well never mind, he will definitely come back to his form :)

twist in interest

Few years ago, I was just watching It with a sence of passing time. But gradually with a little bit of understanding began an inclination towards It . You must be thinking of what is that interests me , whats that "It ?"Yes, its the game Tennis , a game I can hardly think of missing. Even though I cant expalin all points , I watch it with all enthusiasm for the players of my choice. Obviously, I too shout for the winner of the previous year so that he/she can complete a series. And today even I wish my lucky charm for Roger Federer ,the 5th US Open champion ,to win his 6th phase and get the 16th Grand Slam ..... My ambience does'nt permit me to stick to my screen today, but yes, I know he will make it this time too. And yes, I am happy for the come back of Kim Clijsters and her end strike to win the US open. Congrats Clijsters !!! Cheers for the Williams and L & L (Leander & Lukas) too !!! Amen !!!

I bet you would love to get one ...

I bet you would love to get a small , a reall small slap from some tiny hands. Yes, I am sharing a moment with my lil one. A few days back, after his lunch, we were reading some books as part of our daily routine before siesta and I tried (ofcourse knowingly because I was sleepy)to skip a page and he knew it. I had to say sorry and read the entire book again;thats how he punishes me. But in the middle of the story, he asked for a break and said,"Mamma, I think you need a slap." I was shocked to hear that. I asked him," Beta where did you hear that? Who told you to give a slap?" He winked and with a sheepish smile he said,"don't worry Mamma, I will give you a small,a real small slap." And he touched my cheeks with his tiny palm and said ,"see this is a slap.Hitting is not fare so I can give you a small slap." I wondered where he learnt that but were already cozy and slept after a while. At such moments,even though I feel a bit annoyed, I can...

A Classic Piece :)

When I see a master piece, my first impression goes on having it. If at any cost that is not possible I search around for the store book to leave a note. And I scribble down the whole sheet. I remember the very first time I had ben to any big store where I could spend was The Shopper's Stop @ Delhi and I had picked up a Lakme 123, the first brand on my self.But I was so glazed at the store I immediately searched for the storebook and scribbled my first impression note. I dont know whether they do it for everyone or just me ,but a guy with a black coat came and read it therby thanking me with a generous smile. U must be wondering why suddenly I thought of a masterpiece. I was trying to visualize some images last night and the moment I woke up I saw some classic images on my screen. Could'nt stop myself from comenting on them. I rarely get that chance and can never stop myself to grab it. Be it a painting, a showcase or a person, if it is worth appreciating then do it...dont t...

tender hearts and clean souls !!!

While making him have his milk, few drops spilled on his dress.I apologised and he immediately replied, "that's okay Mommy, accidents do happen." I asked him where did you learn this. He replied" little bears' daddy ,father bear was telling him." Little Bear is a character every child loves to watch. Its one of his favorites. Many a times unexpectedly he says few things which makes me realise that he is growing big. A neonate,a God's creation, cuddled , unkown of anything , crying just for food, growing up gradually with mischief crawling, walking and smile,transforms so quickly to a boy ,eating, reading and playing all by himself developing his creativity .... He surely makes me feel proud !!!

wake up !!!

Many a times unexpectedly my son says few things which makes me realise that he is growing big. But when will our politicians and our citizens grow their social and interpersonal skills remains a question in itself. I want to raise a question to those who stick to the newspaper every now and then, that do you really get some ways and means where you can develop your country or you are just reading the articles to chit chat with your friends and collegues and post blogs on page 3? Few days back, I heard that if we need to accept the citizenship of another country , we need to fight in favor for that country all the time. People who were eager to change there status or citizenship, started discussing on how can they fight against their original country? Now i ask them, where were you when your country was really needing you? wake up lazy bums !!! reading articles and staying glued to the screen will never help in progress. Take steps and rebuilt the democracy of our country. Jai Bharat !
I really miss you. I have other friends whom I can talk to but it's not the same. You have such a deep understanding of who I am,I hardly have to speak any words and you know just what I am saying. I really miss you and I want to be sure that you know that no matter where I go, what I do or whom I meet ,I' ll never find as deep a friendship with anyone as I have with YOU

a sidewalk .....

the walk from my house to my son's school is a very familiar road for me now. with some faces waving at me everyday, such as the Les Schwab tire shop guys, the garage guys, the ladies @ da bus stop,the Sardar Uncle,the kabob store chef, the terrific and horrifying Martin hair supply store(i call it terrific and horrifying because it is filled with human faces with strange wigs,that had scared me the first time i entered the Salon and promised never to enter any American Salon alone) and the deserted Indian Cinema Theater. But few faces had vanished after their job were done, like the KFC/A&W builders. they were my daily faces few months back. we used to trouble each other ;they used to block my way almost everyday and say Sorry and i used to roll the stroller on the hose pipes almost every time i crossed them. they used to waive at me in case the road was blocked and let me know how many days it would continue..."sorry lady, just another 15 days". I used to walk wit...
It's not that I did'nt get any new thought for my blog, but trying to know more about my health orders and searchng them online.. So will take time to come back with new posts.

in silent pain ....

yes,I am silent today.... don't know what to speak,don't know whom to speak to and i don't even know why i am writing today. May be just because this has become a habit, I am scribbling it down. Today, I am confused looking at the stars. I know the path is open and I even know which one is correct but still, I feel there is a long dark tunnel to pass through. I cant see the end of it. Or may be I don't want to see it. The end visuals are scaring me. They say it's a bad phase and I'll overcome it only if I let it go. But is it possible? God,help me !!! and this time please don't keep me waiting ... something and someone really needs you. Amen!

I too wish for a Dandelion fluff :)

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They say if you catch it,you can blow your wish and it might come true. I may sound funny but i am not a silly billy..... I enjoy such moments with my growing son. Few days back he wanted to tell me something. With his broken hints he was pointing at the star, The Little Star, asking me to repeat after him,I wish ,I wish .... and said ,"Mommy,I wish,I wish you to be my baby." So touchy a thought. Then i made my wish."I wish ,I wish that you remain my baby all the time."He was sad ,a bit mad rather, replying "i am a boy now." Growing up !!! Yesterday, while our way back home he was trying to catch something. On asking what he was doing,he said,"Mom ,I am trying to catch the Dandelion so that I can blow her my wishes.I can ask her for chocolates,pizzas,race cars and a skate board." Interesting!!! Tiny mind building great thoughts. What if we could get such flowers to fulfill our wishes. I know we will overflow our wants stating them as our wishes, ...

this is what i have gained or earned so far...

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I have been introduced to so many types of people, out of which , I have become a part to some. They say they like me, some say they enjoy my company, some want to be with me because they like my smile ,some say they like the sparkle of my eye. Gradually they start opening up a book before me. I dont mean any novel, they open pages of their life. They share their happiest, funniest moments. Within few days of sharing they become more comfortable sharing their difficult times;times where they felt being left out, lonely. Some are there who just start off with their emotional pages and say ..."i dont know why i felt like sharing it with you. may be i find a friend in you." This usually happens when i meet a stranger. Well my friends were obviously strangers to me before introduced. It scraes me at times thinking ,if i am just a lending ear, how can i solve their puzzles. With passing days I beacome a part of their life, I am introdiced to members of their families. I start fi...

a guilt feel !!!

Its for the first time that i searched for my bagpack and could'nt find the most needed thing. My friend was thirsty and I forgot to carry my water can today. This is for the very first time ever that I looked in and looked out helpless. I had a juice packet but she knew it was for my son...even though she was thirsty ,she could'nt accept my offer. Starting from my teenage I used to carry atleast some snacks, few chocolates, a juice pack, water can ,my first aid kit and my make-up kit :). But somehow with changing habits few things got shortlisted and I remodeled my bagpack. Make-up kit was cut down to just a comb and some rubber bands. first-aid pack with just a neo-spray, chocolates to M&Ms. Juice and water can became an everyday must. My friends wonder how soon I transfer stuffs from one bag to another because I change my bags very frequently. But today I was in a hurry. I forgot to check my bag before leaving home. Everyday before having water I used to offer my friend...

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A powerful way to express ones feelings lies in a simple cut ,copy and paste work. I tried one last night... take a look .... hope you appreciate :)

The Secret

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*If you are complaining,the law of attraction will powerfully bring into your life more situations for you to complain about. If you are listening to someone else complain an focussing on that, sympathizing with them,agreeing with them,in tht moment, you are attracting more situations to yourself to complain about. * your life is in your hands. No matter where you are now,no matter what has happened in your life,you can begin to conciously choose your thoughts,and you can change your life. there is no such thing as a hopeless situation.Every single circumstance of your life can change! *It is impossible to feel good and at the same time be having negetive thoughts.If u r feeling gud,it is because u r thinkng gud thghts.You see,you can have whatever u want in ur life,no limits.But there is one catch:You have to feel good.And whn u thnk about it,isn't that all u ever want? the law is indeed perfect. *everything we think and feel is creating our future.If u r worried or in fear,then u...

if you are doing it... Think AGAIN .

A section of the local nespaper says, "LOVE HATE ", where people can place things or views they love or hate. In the hate section someone had put up....... .....i hate waiting in line to place an order in a crowded selfservice cafe,when a couple or a group join the end of the line and send someone of their number to grab and hold a table for them. Do they think that people who were there first should just stand with their trays or sit on the floor when their food arrives because the tables are all taken by people who have not yet even ordered? A cafe in San Francisco has a sign that says"wait until you have placed your order before being seated." seems like common courtesy, but a lot of people don't seem to get it. I was silent for a while after i read it because knowingly unknowingly i have done this mistake sometime. Friends, if you have done it earlier,never mind. You have a second chance to correct yourself.

does my name justify my being?

Parents named me something, my grandfather showed me its meaning. A friend got a twist in it. And now........ watched the movie... The Secret of Moonacre... in which a teenager ,named Maria, discovers the weight of her responsibility: she has been anointed the last Moon Princess of the valley. It reminded me of a name ...given by someone who was with me for a very few days but holds a special place. People always blamed him but admired him for his indepth knowledge. While he was counting his last breathe, he posed a different look in me. Gave me a very different name, which i never ever knew why he called me so. I related the views someone had mentioned after watching this movie to His. As per the name he gave me..it meant "light, holy". its still a mystery, why he named me so. but whnever he was drunk he said," i would call you S******* , that name suits you." May be peoples' judgement is true,"we speak the truth, when we are drunk." He passed away,...

Always heard, Never believed

Many a times people ask to meditate, to listen to the vibration created by Om and acquire mental peace. i had made it a point that i listen to these soothing vibrations and continued doing it. i don't know how far i have succeeded , because i don't know where it has really helped me. But yes, the days i ignored, they went tougher than the toughest. Well experimenting with something new from now on. hope i succeed.. i am starting from a new book, a new chapter ,Sunderkand from Ramayan. PS : dont think i am sick, its just individual belief . Amen !!! 30 mints spent every early morning can never go waste. so whats the harm making it 40 mints .

Give and Take

every relation demands a give and take situation if u give 100% to ur relation u deserve 100%. but b4 expecting u shud know how much u have given. keep ur expectation limited to it. a husband says i am doing everything for you. i finance you, i take you for an outing, we eat outside, i buy you gifts , i satisfy you, what else do u need? as a wife she says i cook for you, i take care of our baby, i manage our house ,i am always there to meet your physiological frills , what else do u expect? Is this what a relationship is? here we are just performing our tasks. But relationship does'nt stand on doing duties. Its a bond. A bond where we have tied ourselves. Where two souls meet and eventually become One. A wife says, my husband is very good, he does everything he shud but still there is a space between us. A husband says," i am tired after my job schedule today". God damn! then u sit at home and let the wife earn. live with how much she earns. let her play your role for som...

that extra 5 minutes ?

its always needed...but ended with unspoken words neither can i cry nor give the smile then deserved. i feel like telling everything i had thought of in those few minutes but speechless i stand with the crowd till she exits..... she asks for an explanation..what will happen in that 5 minutes i say i don't know ... may be i simply cant resist resist to what if I ask... i have no answer the beast within says, its the pleasure. i feel she wanted it today..but kept it unrevealed living like the nonliving ... my breathes were steeled now may be she can understand i was never wrong when i claimed for those extra 5 minutes. i guess thts what every girl feels, standing at the threshold of her new house, waiving at her parents. the most difficult time ever.

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shake myself shake my body to a tune i tap my feet express my feelings judge ur readings to a music i increase my speed call u to the floor make you do the chore to a step i hold my breathe shiver to the music tremble to the basic to a move where i look sexy dance n dance neck to belly to the extend i make u crazy thats how i am so passionate ... when it comes to music i keep u my asset

i seriously dont like you :(

u always try to take a place on my face. never hesitate, even though u know that i hate u sprung rarely but disturb me entirely i keep poking u, scratching my face...u give me a pain how mean of u ??? dont u find some other place.... cuz u know how much i care for my face... people say your arrival means a passion time... but Mom scares me that its the worse time So dare if you come again... even though u have taken a place now.. but please never show me ur face again... I hate you Pimple .

soothing music

We always end up listening to some filmy songs when we are happy or mostly when we feel low. And we listen to songs suiting our situation forgetting that those songs will keep us in that state wont let us go out of it. i have my own list of musics for this... and it really works (specially when i feel lonely or low) But first of all, can you take some time out remembering or asking yourselves how many times you have heared these musics and do you remember them.. well you have heared them many a times but never thought to remember in da sequel but be it any filmy song you ll mug it the next moment. My dear they are'nt your life... Listen to one of these links... they will make your day. I have made it my habit . I am not asking you to make it your habit but atleast you can freshen up ... There's no harm in trying. and if you are seriously trying , dont forget to let me know. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wT2rgZcCLDU http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKKSurfd6Ys these two are enou...

life is so simple.... it turns u whenever it wants :)

u always complain that i divert a thing... have u ever realised how you divert my being.. u keep me waiting , always wanting.. giving no chance to ask... no chance to repent. i dont know why i still love you so much... to the extent that u call me irresistible... but i still long to be ur piece of munch.. even though i am not there to make it edible. God has never been with me when i have asked on you.. but with no regrets i say its always You.

God u r always with me :)

how strongly , how closely , u hold me once... no space for the air to pass.. so cozy, so touchy, just like a bugga bugga baby. you touch me here n there, you caress me every where. a touch so agile.... a kiss so fragile... this is how you care ... in a moment that is rare ... behold me when i am tired, just to rest on your shoulder when 'ts required. can we be in a bond which is virtual, but still live a life of the usual? this was once asked by u.. (now i ask ) can we still be sticked with that glue? we are never the usual birds spreading out their love notes, we have always kept it a secret yelling nothing but the donts... let there be no spell from a witch on your this little bitch who still longs and waits for that............... Strong, Close, Hold of yours... Amen !!!

The Weather @ my place (SFo)

This is how U were today .... dont take me as your whey... u r making me go away... (ouchy.... it hurts....) the way u embraced me 'twas cozy but smooth ... the moment I took a breath.. it seemed u were pushng me... (just to keep me close) i was loosing my balance.. when u whipped off those leaves shiverring , shaking , just to get a feeling U wanted me to be walking.. the clanging noise, the pushing cart..... when they moved on their own.. i giggled to my heart u made me happy.. U were the Windy Wind... stay close to me like that... for i dont feel apart :)