It's been a year !!!

It's been a year !!! Last Christmas was my Baby shower and this Christmas my Doll is 11 months. WoW ! Time seriously flies .............

Had been to the public library today . Fortunately, met a lady whom I had seen exactly a year back when I was carrying. From the visibility I asked her if she was carrying and got to know that she is almost due. With the formal pleasantries she asked me how my life has become with two kids. I told her that my days have turned too hectic being on toes 24/7. And gradually we started talking of how easy life was when we were kids and our parents had help all through the day and thereby complaining of being alone and doing things by ourselves.

On my way back home, I met an elderly friend. Stopped to say hello and asked about how I was doing. During our conversation she suddenly said few words which touched me and raised my spirits.

She told me,"have you ever realized God has given you the power, the ability to handle a house and 3 kids(my hubby included) which at a point of time your parents were doing with some one's help. They had family members to take care of you and helpers and home. But now you are standing alone and doing things. Be proud of yourself !" ... :)

Now, I don't feel stressed with my chores. Rather, I feel this is the time where Home Management starts. From a home maker to a home manager is not easy but noting comes in easy packages. We have to pay now for a free tomorrow.

:) happy !!!

What is it you want ?

What is it you want ? You want the moon ! Just the say word and I'll pull it down for you ..... It's a wonderful life ....

I may not want the moon or its beams shooting out from me, but yes, I do want to be the pastel gem covered in its shell, so protected that even the golden rays or the dancing daffodils cannot conquer over me...

I may not want to reach for the moon or the stars surrounding it,but yes, I do want to be the falling stone from the ocean of love ,so hard for anyone to break any heart...

I may not want to be like the moon with spots in it , but yes, I do want to keep my eyes open to see a spotless whole new world ,so I live with new horizons where we will be....

I may not be the moon on a dark night hiding behind, but yes, I do want to hum the tunes from the times behind....

I may not be as tender as the moon, but yes, I do want to remain the stubborn ,irritating, yet charming mare showing you a different world....

I may not be as subtle as the mood, but yes, I do hold the subtlest heart to thank you for giving me the best ......

Now you can say what you want .......

:(

few lines haunt me now -

Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya, Jab ghum ka saya lehraya

Jab aansoo palkon tak aya,Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya

Hamne dil ko yeh samjhaya, dil aakhir tuh kyun rota hai

Duniya mei yoon hi hota hai,Yeh jo gehre sannate hain

Waqt ne sabko hi baante hei

...Thoda ghum hei sab ka qissa, Thidi dhoop hey sab ka hissa

Aankh teri bekar hi nam hai, harpal ek naya mausam hei

kyun tu aise pal khota hai

Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai...

I really feel torn apart today...I want to cry.... I am depressed....

Had a flame attack..but saved in fraction of a second ............

I am taking it as a bad dream.... and hope i wake up bright n shining

the drowning diva .....

with cracks in every corner,

I set myself discrete

with shatters in every angle,

I remain obsolete

when people stay apart

I drown to depression

when they block my path

I no longer live.....

I know I cause trouble

but that's when I struggle

to live and to let live

but only then I long to snuggle

the diva in me

still shines for others

but the simplicity at bliss

sinks forever .....

it sinks forever ................................................

A random thought !

the paths are various

choices are few

a decision to choose

when ultimate is one

but the grilling goes on...

simplicity at its bliss

we opt for some peace

being cozy on his(clouds) lap

awake with the stars

but the blogging goes on....

gracias to thy fame

when nature plays its game

answerable to all

questionable to none

but the living goes on...

3 times n 30 minutes - very touching moments of my life.

When you get something which you had always longed for , is the most happiest moment of your life. And it becomes special when its unexpected. Something similar happened to me yesterday.

Because of the flu season, my kids were a little cranky for the past two days. As usual they needed more attention and some extra love n care. If I gave more time to the little one, big brother was hurt. So, I made it a point that whenever I was free from chores and little one sleeping, I dedicate time to Big Bro. That made him happy :)

With life similar to iph4 with too many apps , things are not so easy to workout and getting a chance I just lie down . But yesterday, when I wanted to take a power nap, my little one woke up. He cudn't have a proper sleep because of irritation due to cold. He seemed to be cranky again. But then was the moment !!!

He woke up with full sleepy eyes and turned towards me. Gave a very sweet smile and patted thrice on my cheeks and went to sleep holding my ear, posting the smile on his face. 'twas as if he knew Mom is tired and needed some care. Ahh !!! Dil mange more....some more patting please :)

Yes, I deserved it and I got it from my boy. My sonny boy was not sleepy. and wanted a story time on bed. After all the story telling, he hugged me and then started petting me. He placed his hands on my cheeks making a V at the chin and looked at me for sometime. Then started patting me on my head for almost 20-25 mints. Hugging me, smiling holding me then again patting, combing my hair with his tiny fingers ! Awwww !!! wasn't that a very special moment for me ?

Initially, I had thought of sitting before the system once he fell asleep but this special care made me very sleepy. So, instead just slept with my boys.

I got all the pampered love I always demanded or longed for from my two little ones.

God Bless my kids... they make my life so simple !!!

Motherhood is such a Blessing :) specially with kids like Punu n Inu :)

ps: I Love You

Love,

Mommy :)

Bittersweet Memories

When we get nostalgic about something, we either smile over the incident or just let it go with a sigh. And something similar just happened with me today.
Years ago, something like this was echoing at home," take off your uniform, finish your homework, do not sit near the tv now, finish your milk,go out and play, do your prayers, time to bed",when Mom used to give out a call to us. And my younger brother deliberately used to hide or sit cozily with our Grandfather as he knew once he was with him, no one can scold or get him out of that place unless otherwise, Bapa(that is how we adressed our Grandfather) moved. He was the pampered one. It was very difficult for Mom to finish her chores with him. She used to stare and increase her tempers but nothing ever worked. Then, I used to feel ," Oh! Mom is so restricting."
But now, when I have stepped in her shoes , I am going through the same situation when my elder son sits cuddled near his Grandfather or Grandmother and I can just wait till they move or he comes to me for something. At that moment, I really get annoyed as to why isn't he obeying me , all my other jobs are pending because of him but, ultimately, I just frown to myself and nothing works. :). Later, I realise, we were doing the same thing to Mom and now my child is doing it to me.
These days, our children hardly find time to spend with their Grandparents due to growing nuclear families. And now when I think back to the days we had a chance to live with them, we have so much to cherish that we feel their values in our hearts.
My request to my readers, if you have a family of Grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, then let your next generation take the opportunity to know their importance in life. I know we have to go through some compromises because of it but then few days or hours spent with family members will definitely give them the bliss of Family. This is how they will learn that other than Mom n Dad ,there are people who equally love and care for them.
It may be bitter, but sweet for a lifetime........
God Bless Us All
and let my Grandparents'Soul rest in peace
Amen !!!

One more day to go !!!

The long wait is finally coming to an end. My lil one will be in my arms in just a day.