What if I am not enough?

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 I truly don’t know whether I should even be writing this, but the very thought of it still scares me and shakes my confidence.

It’s easy to say that I am capable of raising both of them and that I’ll be able to guide them toward success. But what if I fail? What if I’m not successful enough to help them achieve their dreams? What if I make the wrong decisions for them? There are still so many things I don’t know.

No matter how much I try to learn, there’s always something else I get stuck on. Rules, legal matters, banking, insurance, education, finances; everything feels overwhelming at times. I feel like I have to start from scratch every single day. I learn one thing, only to find myself struggling with something else. It feels endless.


Does everyone go through this, or am I the only one finding it so difficult?


xoxo boy, I’m truly scared. :(


I know you’ve told me so many times not to overthink, but how can I not think about concerns like these?

I can’t ask you to make a promise, but can I keep coming back to you whenever I feel this way or whenever I get stuck?

And I’m sorry for constantly asking you for help with everything, but the truth is that I really need your guidance.

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