Keeping it simple for you

Miss you my love 💔 I am moving, nourishing, healing… But in those moments of despair, I am beyond words trying to understand how something so empty can feel when you’re not beside me. I reach for every corner, almost believing you would still be there. Rusty is the feeling when my arms hold nothing, when they instinctively search for you. Some nights, I just want to wake up with you again, because these nights have a way of haunting me. If there were a whistleblower who could carry my cravings to you, I wonder what they would say… At this moment,  Missing you so badly, xoxo boy 😞🥹 I remember my promise. I told you I would be fine. And I am trying. ❤️ But there are moments when I just need to be in that space again to breathe without thinking, to relax without pretending, and to laugh… the way I used to. Just once or more, I wish I could find my way back there. ❤️

  In the irony of life, if there were one moment I could relive, it would be one with you. Amidst all the  hochpoch  and chaos, if there were one place where I found my sanity, it is being wrapped safely in your arms. Between then, now, and everything that lies ahead, if I can still stand tall and smile, it is because of the freedom, strength, and confidence you have given me. You have given me countless moments of courage,    the kind that quietly remind me to keep walking forward, no matter what. I may call you mean, rude, or my  bad boy … but beneath all that teasing is an enormous amount of affection you have showered upon me;  and truthfully, that is what my heart keeps craving for. I will never forget my promise. And within the beautiful boundaries of friendship, trust, and our little world of fun, I would happily remain just the way I am with you:  honest, comfortable, a little demanding, and always ready to ask for just a little more of yo...

Do you remember his birthday? 😊 That was the only question I was asked during my first visa interview. I answered confidently, without hesitation, and I still remember the sheepish smile on his face. Later, he confessed that he had been nervous wondering what would happen if I got the date wrong! Since October 2024, I have lost count of how many times I have remembered and mentioned that date. 07.20. ** It’s a Monday today, and we wish you a Happy Birthday. ❤️ We have celebrated some proud moments along the way, Baaplu getting a job, Chinchin performing with happiness, and me stepping into and learning a new role. Life continues to move forward, and yet, the emptiness you left behind doesn’t seem to fade. It feels unbelievable that next Monday, we will be performing your annual rites, your first death anniversary. Gelha, did you really just vanish somewhere into thin air? How can someone who was so much a part of everything simply not be here anymore? I keep myself engaged in every po...

"Is your Chromebook charged?" "Do you have sleeves for your Chromebook and laptop?" "Don't forget your badge." "Hmm... don't you need anything else?" "Oh yes! Can you sharpen the pencils? And I forgot my pens, markers, and highlighters..." "My journal too!" "What's wrong with my Chromebook? Why can't I access my email? Why is this page taking forever to load?" "My handbag is going to be much heavier than I expected." "Why don't you take a backpack?" "What?! Ridiculous! I'm not carrying a backpack like a school kid!" "Are my phone and watch charging?" "What's your plan for lunch tomorrow? Is that sorted?" If you're wondering what kind of chaos this is, it probably sounds like a kindergartner getting ready for the first day of school. 😄 Well... that was exactly the vibe in our house last night. Only this time, I was the one panicking, an...

12.12.2002 … It all began with our wedding, a day filled with sacred vows, dreams, and the promise of forever. Years later, those promises blossomed into a life rich with love, family, laughter, and countless memories. Every picture, every smile, and every milestone became part of our beautiful journey. Then came the day, 07.08.2025, that changed everything. With Shirdi Sai Baba's sacred vibhuti on your forehead, Lord Jagannath's tulsi garland around your neck, the blessed sindoor of Panchamukhi Hanuman, Strength gathered from  Mahavinayak & anything and everything a mother could ask for before Maa Kamakhya Devi, you were surrounded by prayers and divine blessings. You had promised me and our children that you would be brave, that you would fight, and that you would come back to us. Yet, in those final moments, when your voice revealed what my heart was never ready to hear, time seemed to stand still. I still hold on to the promise you made, wondering how fate changed our s...

Amidst all the chaos, I completely forgot to share this hilarious, drama-filled episode from our lives. 😊 With the change in his taste buds, the only thing he could truly relax and enjoy was a popsicle. You must be wondering what's so funny about that? When we stopped visiting people and avoided gatherings, everyone started wondering what was going on and would occasionally drop by to check on us. Whenever there was a discussion about food, he would always mention his craving for popsicles. We started exploring different flavors that he might enjoy without any hassle. The kiddo gang would visit different stores, hunt for flavors, and even argue over which one to buy. They turned it into a sport, something they could do for their Uncle/Mousa. One fine afternoon, he had asked my dear friend to bring a pack of one particular flavor. We were at the hospital, and within the blink of an eye, she vanished into thin air! Wondering what had happened, I found out she'd rushed out becaus...