329 Days Later… I Still Wait to Hear ‘I Love You’ Again...

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When our souls connected and we bonded, you said “I love you” in the ways you cared:

a little pampering, an extra hug;

a snug place inside your tee, even when I bugged.

Stains of vermilion, unavoidable;

love notes written on skin instead of paper.

Blossoms of affection in every caress,

each movement touched by a gentle breeze.

Our love was nurtured through phone calls as we grew closer despite the distance.

You followed your heart, setting aside discomfort because that was how you cared,

and our love knew no boundaries.

We cuddled through a journey filled with joy, jokes, and fresh starts whenever differences arose.

Then we became parents:

first to someone, then to some-two.

And once again, we grew.

Bound by responsibilities, yet never forgetting to detour into those old days when saying “I love you” was unnecessary because we already knew how deeply we belonged to one another.

You called me the craziest person in your life,

and I insisted that you simply deal with it :)

We gracefully accepted each other and shared evenings filled with laughter, reminiscing about every precious moment.

Today, I miss those moments.

I try to cherish them through our children, and yet there is a sudden jolt at how quickly they are growing.

My conversations with you have never ceased, and I will continue them for as long as I can.

But now, there is no you asking the next morning what was discussed.

It has been 329 days since your final words,

yet I find myself asking again....

if we could connect and bond once more.

I still eagerly wait to hear those words:

“I love you”...

again.

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