Love that echoes beyond Goodbye..

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 Oh my goodness… the voice I had been craving for finally echoed through the silence. I turned around, searching everywhere, but in vain… and yet it was so clear, as if he stood right beside me, calling out, “Mammaa…”

For a moment, I felt his presence all around me. I looked, I longed… and after months of unbearable silence, hearing that voice made my heart sink. Tears rolled down before I could even hold them back.

Deep within, I always knew he was with me. Still, I kept wondering if I would ever see him again , even if only in my dreams, like I did the day after he left for heavenly glory. But this evening, while gathering every ounce of strength to prepare the invitation for his shradha ceremony, my heart was aching for him more than ever.

In my thoughts and longing, I wished I could simply pull your chair close, sit beneath it, rest my head in your lap, and stay there for a while… and just then, the voice echoed again.

He is here. With me. Around me.

And somehow, I love him even more now, because I know how deeply he loved me too, enough to stay close, enough to remind me he never truly left.

Xoxo boy… for a fleeting second, I truly felt like running to you and holding onto you tightly. How desperately I wished I could.


Gelha, I will do all the needful. Just stay close to me… and let me feel your presence every now and then.

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